stuck in the shadow of my mistake
it’s funny when u find urself looking from the outside.im standing here but all i want is to be over there.why did i let myself believe miracles could happen?cause now i have to pretend that i dont really care.i thought u were my fairytale,my dream when im not sleeping.a wish upon a star that’s coming throughbut everybody else could tell that i confused my feeling with the truth when there was me and u.
when there was me and u.was taken from the high school musical’s soundtrack.yeap.my current mood.counting the days for my semester one final exam’s results.and heck..this determines whether ill be continuing my institution ther in mtrx or,u noe,be kicked out from that place.hmm at dis moment,everything sounds pathetic.my life is in complete mess.people tend to take advantages from others.and friends (if dats wut they call it) ,are more likely to be unappreciative towards their peers.lets just be normal and treat each other well.it is not a sin at all for u to make new friends and wut not.but please dont ever break or losen the bond uve made with the old friends uve met bfore.as they say,make new friends,keep the old,one is silver and the other is gold.why can we just do it like..we usually used to?thers just no more smiles and hellos and also kinky 10 seconds jokes when we get across or even bumped over each other along the hallway.dat makes me feel awkward.am i hated?erh.dunt judge people by their looks.or by wut their parents’ occupations are.because those things cant buy the value of a friendship.noe wut im saying?im tired of pretending.sometimes i just let it up to be the whole real me but thats even make things worse.ive tried everything but it seems not working.and i dunno wut else to do.ive waited for so long.and all i can do now is..nothing.yeah do NOTHING.this demented mind is now possessed by the fear of..wut else?results.with the big capital R.thousands of butterfly in the stomach.pray to god is the best and only thing to do.and dats wut ive been doing.Allahuakbar.
